My Dear Sweet Adlee,
April 12th was Easter Sunday and I was induced to deliver your tiny lifeless body. What a blessing it was to have you come into the world the day we celebrate and remember the Resurrection of our Savior. It is in Him we have life and it is in Him life is restored. Because of Jesus Christ, we will be reunited.
I will always remember how perfect you were. Your body, fully formed with your tiny, long toes; your sweet mouth open and your round little head. Your fingers were long and your eyes shaped like almonds, all just like your mama. You couldn’t have been more perfect and my mama heart just fell in love with you.
I loved being able to hold you one last time in the hospital as I sang the only lullaby I’d get to. Even though your spirit has left your body, I hope you feel wrapped in our love for you.
Adlee, you fulfilled my greatest dream, to be a mom, even if it wasn’t the way I had ever planned for myself. You brought us so much joy and excitement, which I will always be grateful for. Until we are reunited, I will entrust you with God. I know that you were first His before you were mine. But, when I see you again and you are once again mine, I will be racing to hold you in my arms.
I want you to know, Adlee, I will always remember you. Every mother’s and father’s day, I will think of you. Each year on August 24th you will be at the forefront of my mind. Every Easter will remind me of you. November 27th will no longer be a day to celebrate when your father and I got married. Instead, it will remind me of you, my child, because that’s when you were conceived. This Christmas I will think of how it would’ve been your first. I will be reminded of you every February 6th, the day your father and I were sealed because I know we are an eternal family. I will think of how I can’t wait to hold you in my arms and kiss your sweet cheeks. I will think of you when I walk by the momentums we have of you. I will think of you with every picture and ultrasound image I look at. I will see you in every picture of Christ holding a child. I see you in the color pink. I will always remember you.
I love you, Adlee. I love our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and their Plan of Salvation and Happiness. I will trust in God and put my faith in Christ. I will put my faith in the power of the resurrection and the eternal plan of God. I will put my faith in eternal families. I love you, my child. I love you forever and ever.
Until we meet again …
With Love, Mom
