Truth. Trey’s birth story was the birth of my dreams. I had so many mental barriers and even traumas I had to overcome, but, once I did, I succeeded. His birth was quick, unmedicated, and the perfect Hypnobabies birth – just as I’d hoped. When I first found out I was pregnant with another baby …
You’ve recently heard our big news – I’m pregnant … again! Yes, that makes for three pregnancies in less than three years. To say I’m not ready for another pregnancy is an understatement. Regardless, it’s what God asked and inspired us to do. Truth is, we had wanted to wait longer, but we felt like …
Let’s rewind to April 2, 2022. It was General Conference weekend and I was home alone with Kimberlee. Anthony was out working and right as the talks were about to begin I had laid Kimberlee down for a nap. April General Conference is always hard for me and this year, it was especially so. Adlee’s …
On Wednesday, October 6, 2021 I had my 39-week appointment during which I had my OB strip my membranes. Due to my having had gestational diabetes, and the toll pregnancy was taking on my body, I didn’t want to go past my due date. I also wanted to avoid induction in the form of Pitocin, …
Here’s my “abortion” story. It was April 9, 2020 and Anthony and I went in for an anatomy ultrasound at almost 21 weeks gestation. There was no heartbeat. Our baby had died at least 2 weeks prior if not more. My body didn’t get the memo and was holding onto a life that no longer …
In January and then again in May I was asked to speak in two different meetings for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Given the controversy our world currently faces, I feel it is time for me to share that message with you. You will find my style bold, a pattern I think …
It’s been way too long since I’ve blogged. When I last wrote I was around 15 weeks pregnant with a baby. That baby, Kimberlee, is now 8 months old and she is the light and joy of our lives. She is one of our biggest blessings and I cannot imagine life without her. She is …
Pregnancy after loss is like being on the longest and most intense roller coaster ride you’ve ever been on. You’re getting on the ride and you’re excited and nervous at the same time. As the ride progresses you continue to experience excitement and then also fear when you come to big drops, twists, and turns. …
Our society has become very skilled at silencing the journey of motherhood. With shutting down discussion from the discovery of two pink lines to how hard pregnancy is and then all the way through the post-partum stages, we have created very serious problems, two of which I will address: shame around pregnancy loss and higher …
Here I am at almost 4:00am on Christmas morning and it’s finally setting in … the fact that today would’ve been my daughter’s first Christmas. Yes, she would’ve only been four months old if carried full-term, but I still would’ve had so much fun buying her cute outfits and making her little stuffed animals, booties, …
Losing Adlee was incredibly hard and then there was a calm … a long calm. Feeling ready, my husband and I have been trying for almost seven months and well … still not being pregnant has also been hard. Put both of those together and you’ve got the perfect recipe for a broken heart, mother, …
A little over a week ago I finally called in an SOS to God. I was hurt. I was angry. The only person there seemed to blame was God … and the only person who could ultimately help me was also God. So I called out… God, I’m mad at You. I’m mad that You …