Today someone told me my posts are always so positive and that there’s no way they’d be able to be that way in my situation. In all honesty, it is a daily battle. I have to fight to see the positive and control my thoughts.
Some days are really hard. Most days I cry. Other days I feel peace and hope for my future and God’s plan for me, while on others I feel hate and anger towards those who hurt me, who overstepped their bounds, and who lacked integrity and virtue. It’s all part of the process, but I constantly have to remind myself of the goodness and love of God. I have to choose to see the good and light in a dark and terrifying situation. I am nowhere near forgiving, but I am slowly healing and reminding myself of who I am and that this does not define me or my future.
Am I terrified? Yes. Am I uncertain? Yes. Do I have a plan? Yes. Do I know God has a plan for me? Yes. Do I know that God will take care of and bless me? Yes. Do I trust that God will mend my broken heart? Yes. Do I believe there’s a bright future just waiting for me? Yes.
In the hardest and darkest of times, you have to look for the good. There’s a time and a place for the bad. It may come and go like it does for me, but positivity is the key. Find the things that make you happy and be with the people who truly love you and lift you up. It’ll all be better, someday.
