My first marriage was anything but healthy. By the time I found the right resources to help me improve myself in terms of our relationship, it was too late. Regardless, I read and finished reading many of those books and they have been a huge blessings for me. My husband has read most if not …
If you are like me, you have a perfect angel in heaven. Maybe you have multiple. My heart goes out to you. I understand your pain. I understand your sorrow. I understand the love. I understand the sadness. I understand the need for answers, and I understand the quest for hope. I believe there …
How Christ saves us. I’m not talking about his infinite Atonement, what it means, and how it provides salvation to the world. No. I am referring to how Christ saves us through grace and how we claim hold on that grace. This is a very simple idea that can become very complex and overthought …
Last night a girl I know reached out to me and she asked me a very valid question. Knowing that the message I sent to my ex’s girlfriend was only intended for her she asked, “So why post it online then if it was only intended for one? You will always get hate or backlash …
This was the last personal email I sent my ex, “Casey” on March 8, 2019. There were still a lot of divorce logistics that were discussed after this. My narrative still hasn’t changed and it never will. “I can’t sleep knowing you’re only a few doors down from me. I’ve been trying to fall asleep …
In my efforts to be more transparent with all the hate and opposition I am facing in relation to my ex, I am publicizing some emails I’ve sent. This email was one I sent on March 2, 2019 almost a month after my ex left. I will be substituting his name with “Casey”. “Casey, I …
Dear Girl, You don’t know me and we’ve never met, but I am “Casey’s” ex-wife (name changed). I know nothing about you or your relationship and honestly, I never thought I’d hear about one of his girlfriends. I always thought I’d learn about one of his relationships when he was about to get married because …
I have been told that grief is just love with nowhere to go. What do we do with that love then? How can we give it a place to go so that, amongst the tears of losing a loved one, we can pick ourselves up and in a sense, move on? I will start by …
It seems to me that my birthday brings a heaviness upon my heart and mind. Last year as I turned 24, I found myself lying on my bedroom floor in my wedding dress sobbing, feeling lost, alone, and defeated. I felt depressed. I was not only single but divorced and I still wasn’t a mother. …
I’m going to come clean to you all. I may be wrong for feeling this way. My reality is my reality. Lately… I’ve felt very worked up. I’ve felt upset. I’ve felt wronged. I’ve felt cheated. I’ve felt almost angry. What about? My ex-husband. Why? Haven’t you moved on? Yes, of course I have, but …
Tonight I was talking with a friend who lost her baby a month ago today. We were exchanging experiences and feelings with the struggles we have as an unseen mother and a poem began to form. As I was putting on the finishing touches, I realized that this is a message from our angel children. …
At my 20 week ultrasound, the doctor informed us that our Adlee died a few weeks before at 17 weeks. We were shocked. Here we were thinking we were going to find out the gender of our 20-week old baby, and instead, she had been dead for weeks … or so we all initially thought. …
