Oh my child you were gone too soonAnd now my troubled heart,Wonders so many things,You were one of God’s finest works of art. When you’d first cryAfter your opening breath,I try and try to hear it,But am left wondering with no rest. Your skin, what shade?Is it more olive or more brown?Your hair in locks …
A mothers sorrow when she’s lost a childIs one not known to allBut all who’ve felt it know the painAnd know it lasts a while. With phantom kicks and what-if-IPlaying with my mind,The guilt sets inAnd what should’ve been,drags me down inside. Not a day goes byWhere my eyes stay dryAnd at night when I …
My Dear Sweet Adlee, April 12th was Easter Sunday and I was induced to deliver your tiny lifeless body. What a blessing it was to have you come into the world the day we celebrate and remember the Resurrection of our Savior. It is in Him we have life and it is in Him life …
“I’m going to go get the doctor because I have some concerns.” My first thought, “Okay, there must be something wrong with the way the baby is developing.” Nothing could’ve prepared my excited mama heart for what she would say next… “I’m not seeing a heartbeat.” Silence. This was my …
A couple of months ago I received a message from a “friend”, we’ll call him Andy. We were more than acquaintances, but our friendship was very surface level and frankly, only existed because he was friends with my ex-husband. In his message, after congratulating me on my recent marriage, he proceeded to request that I …
I don’t think I ever had people more interested in my life and what I’m doing than I did following my divorce earlier this year. I think it’s everyone’s natural reaction to be concerned about the emotional and mental well-being of someone in my situation. There was also probably a level of curiosity, which I …
I was ready to give up on dating and was making some pretty great life plans with big goals. From the time I was sixteen up until now … you could say I’ve been around the block. I have dated so many guys and it was getting old, especially following a divorce. The worst …
Being single again was definitely not on my agenda or list of life accomplishments, but here I am … and I’m as single as ever. If I had written this even just a couple of months ago, my perspective on being single and reentering the dating world would have been entirely different. I would have …
Dear Future Boyfriend, I have been wronged, but I have forgiven. I have been hurt, but I am not broken. I was married, but I’m no longer attached. I am not a “virgin”, but I broke no covenant. I am not a feminist, but I am independent and self-reliant. I was hurt by a man, …
I’ve been surprised by the number of people who have asked me, “How did you know that you were going to get divorced?” Truth is, I didn’t … not when it all happened anyway. You have to remember that he left me, this wasn’t a mutual decision or desire. Looking back, all the signs of …
Over the last seven months or so I’ve done a lot of searching, reflecting, pondering, growing, stretching, etc. You get the picture. I’ve thought a lot about what I want my future to be like and how I can plan for it. If there is one thing I am sure of, there is nothing …
I’m the type of person who has a lot of dreams, both of the kind you fulfill and the kind you have when you’re asleep. In fact, there have been many times where my dreams have been a form of revelation for me. It must have something to do with my Armenian blood. With that …
